a day with my coyotes<3

and this is my bestfriend...

Life.

Sometimes the world is just so much to take in, if i think too much, I just start hating everyone and everything. For instance; the boy I'm talking to... Nicest kid in the world! Yes, he's been involved in drug usage and encounters of the sexual kind, but who's to say he still cant be good? It's just rough. He's awkward and it's not like I'm the most social in the bunch... They say if you really love someone you work through the hard times, but, well, I just met him and all and he's a great guy but it's just going to be a lot of work to get through this. It's about time I had a long-time boyfriend, though. Because of all the trouble I got into with my parents regarding boys it might help to, I dunno, ease them. And love is always a good thing. It's just, he's been in trouble and I've been in trouble, I sorta just want someone right now that I don't have to rush things with. Someone who will hold my hand and watch the sun set, or something lame like that.  It was totally awesome when we got a little frisky in the woods, but I just feel like I need to tell him that I wanna take it slow. I've never wanted it slow before. UGG WTF.

Why do people hate me when I have nothing they would ever want? #theblues

Friday, Bitches

ITS FREIDAEY
FRY DAY
and it could have been a better one, i guess.
I need to keep up with my blog, my oh my.
I'm losing touch:(
and my twitter is also sucking ass too.
You see, what I'm trying hard to do is not to make people think I'm a bad kid, but I dont wanna look completely lame either. I would LOVE sharing my full life to everyone, but I've been taking too many similar risks so I think it's time to tone it down.
I guess I can let it all out here though.
OH BABY
I'm talking to the most adorable guy in the world, Mason. And if it couldn't get any better than that, he actually likes me for who I am.  I know I'm suppost to slow it down in guy world but.... If I found a guy that really likes me and I waited 2-3 weeks before doing ANYtHiNg sexual, I dont see why I can't now.
Sooo yea, we took it to the woods.
But really, nothing happened. lol
anywho, I met his mom.
She seems nice.
The only thing I'm worried about is like, it feels like I'm dating this kid. But, I'm not. Like, we arn't offic or anything.  I don't mind, it's just strange because we're pretty much dating. I'm just gonna wait and see if he brings it up, or maybe I'll manage to squeeze it in here or there.
Whew, I've been off the pot for too long, my brain is starting to get like, super duper focused and headachey. But I've been doing this thing where I sleep like twice as much. Why? Who knows.
CEE YA
<3 Ninbean

NEW TRACKS
http://8tracks.com/ninadevine/summer-is-just-around-the-corner
check this shittttttt

About to go play some

WISH ME LUCK

#twerk

Oh yea... I like to dance.
If you wish to call thissss^^^^ dancing;)

No one is going to find out about this blog...
Oh Whell.

It's Kind Of A Funny Story

This has been the craziest day of my life.
Well not really.
But close.

At school: just a typical day
BUT THEN, BAM! A kiss from my homeboy Mason.  How can someone be so sweet. He's literally the nicest kid I know. How is someone so cute and still a boy? Like most guys, all they want is to get it in, but Mason actually cares about me. It's nice to have someone care about me.
Field hockey was a mess though.  Playing bad at field hockey is like a bad breakup.... you just give up, and it sucks ass.  Yea, okay, it might not seem so big to you, but field hockey is my LIFE. Its the one thing that my whole future is based off of, so, it's pretty damn important to me to play well.
When I got home at.... oh... let's say... 9:10, I immediately went out for a run to calm my nerves. My dad yelled at me, I called my mom and cried to her, then I cried to daddy. Then I watched a movie. So I'm good now.  But I went from being SO HIGH (not literally) to so lowwwwwwwwwww and then back to normal. One day.
That's all it takes.
It's kind of a funny story.
Lol.